Of so much better.
I’m tired of sitting on the sidelines, crippled by my fear of the unknown. My future is what I make out of it, and right now, I’m taking all my opportunities for granted.
What happened to the girl with a burning passion to make a difference, to follow through, to be known? What happened to the girl that believed the impossible was within reach as long as you worked fucking hard for it? What happened to the girl that refused to depend on anyone and aimed to be the one people looked up to?
I know why this girl faded away. I was beaten down by university, gave too much of myself away to organizations and different people, I cared way more about others than myself. I used to think it was good to be so selfless. But now I realize the reason I did what I did was because I stopped believing in myself and put my effort in others, in hopes that they would accomplish the things I didn’t think I could ever do.
I have to show myself that I’m worthy of my own trust. I need to respect myself and believe that I can do whatever I need to do.
It’s time to revive that young girl who used to reach for the stars and nurture her into a mature woman capable of using her faults and nightmares to drive herself forward.
I will not be lazy.
I will not disregard my past.
I will keep pushing forward.
I will succeed.
I will be capable.